Another day, another lost apartment

So last week, after being threatened to lose the apartment I agreed to rent because I wanted to view it once more to make sure this is what I wanted to do, (because I was hesitant about the area) and was about to drop a $1350 deposit on the joint I hear some truly fucked up news today. First let me say that this Realtor claimed she'd worked with this landlord before, and how she is a good landlord blah blah blah but now I'm wondering if she was just really talking some shit. So...the paperwork to bring into the section 8 office included my lease was to be handed to me last wknd and 5 excuses later it still has not reached my hands. I called and inquired only to hear oh the landlord hasn't gotten back to me yet or oh the landlord only left me a msg saying her secretary is not in the office so the paperwork couldn't be filled out (the secretary was going to fill out the papers because it is a time consuming process). It got to the point where after being advised I called the landlord myself and left her a msg inquiring about the hold up. No call back and a day later the agent calls me. Well I can give you two options with the apartment. you can get reimbursed your money or wait two weeks to get the paperwork because the person authorized to fill them out won't be back until then.

My mouth hit the floor. Ya see this woman practically pressured me to get the information together, and the cash! for this apartment. and then there was no mention in between all the phone calls made during the week, nor during the time I came down to meet the landlord and drop off the forms to be filled out was there any mention that the landlord still hasn't gotten all the proof that she is the new owner of this building so u may have to wait. All it was about was me going that day to the apartment to pay my deposit. Nothing else. Then she hits me with the okie doke, she can still let you move in if u have a situation and need a place to stay. u just have to pay the full rent.

and then what? in two weeks i will hear yet another cockamamie story about why the paperwork isn't done yet. and i have spent so much money to live in an area i don't care for in an apt where for the cost, i could have an extra room and keep my living room, for $50 more if i look elsewhere! am i making any sense here, i think i'm ranting and it's not coming out right.

u r intelligent if you are reading this. and you think i'm a wack job because of the odd ball way i type but i don't give a fuck right now. i am counting my blessings tho. all the shady actions caused ppl to try and jinx me saying that i lost my cash on that place. i am now relieved i have an opportunity to get it back and move into a place in a better area. soon after that awful phone call i got others saying come see an apt tomorrow morning and then one in the afternoon. i have so much to do this wknd that i have to put my search off till monday. if the place i truly want, the 3 bedroom with the piano and backyard on the quiet block comes in that doesn't take section 8 i'm in it! ppl don't agree with me giving up my subsidy but i say the hell with it. i'm tired. my children are getting bit up by some kind of bug, not sure if its a mosquito, roach or plain ole bed bugs. but my daughter has like 20 bites compared to my son's like 15.

i'm sick of the flies and roaches swarming this apartment. and most of all i'm sick of the long commute my poor child has to do to a very distant neighboring burrough. we get up early in the morning and if we are up late, she is late. i'm sick of living out of a suitcase and not being able to get my $200 raise because my schedule is so shaky. last nite as i entered the fridge for a drink of water i noticed a spider slinging its web from my arm. wow i'm in the jungle, not an apt with a roof and a door. i'm sick of not being able to start all over again.